fingers crossed

Well, I'm sitting here ready to write out my experiences with IVF but I'm wondering how to start! Maybe with my health history. I am 5 years past a bone marrow transplant for leukaemia and everything is going well for me. Before I had any chemo, I did 2 IVF cycles and froze 22 eggs.

In 2001 my husband and I were ready to start a family and so in September we had our first egg transfer. My thoughts for those 2 weeks before the blood test were just everywhere! So much hoping and praying, even talking to my little babies, asking them to hold onto me, that I loved them and wanted them so much! (I say plural as I had 2 eggs transferred). It was the longest two weeks of my entire life, the time went so slow and much to my disappointment I was not pregnant!

When my husband came home that evening, he just held me while I cried and told me not to worry that we had 20 eggs left. He was right and so we tried again. This time round through it took many months for my endometrium to actually reach a decent thickness. I ended up on double the dose of Estrofem and I could only get to a thickness of 5.7mm! I couldn't believe it! As I was on a limited number of eggs, I didn't want to waste any and this is why it was months before I did a transfer again.

This time it was January 2002, my endometrium only 5.7mm, and for some reason, I agreed for a transfer. Again, those 2 weeks were excruciating, time went way too slow. I haven't prayed hardly as much as my whole life as I did in those 2 weeks. It took 5 eggs unfrozen as 3 died when thawed as we were down to 15 eggs already. But then the phone call came. Linda called me and she said, "So..., do you think it was worth coming in today?" and I said, "What do you mean Linda?" whilst holding my breath. She told me I was pregnant! I burst into tears and I think the only think I could say was "Oh my God!!!!!!!" What a truly fabulous feeling. And we now have a beautiful 14-months old boy who I couldn't live without. We are now going for baby number 2 with 13 eggs left. Keep your fingers crossed for me!