going for seconds

Well I'm sitting here ready to write out my experiences with IVF, but I wondering how to start?

Maybe with my health history. I am five year past bone marrow transplant for Leukaemia and everything is going well for me. Before I had any chemo I did two IVF cycles and froze twenty two embryos. In 2001 my husband and I were ready to start a family and so in September we had our first transfer. My thoughts for those two weeks before the blood test were just everywhere! So much hoping and praying even talking to my little babies asking them to hold onto me, that I love them and wanted them so much! (I say plural as I had two embryos transferred) It was to be the longest two weeks of my entire life, the time went so slowly and much to my disappointment I was not pregnant.

When my husband came home the evening he just held me while I cried and told me not to worry we had twenty left. He was right so we tried again. This time round it took many months for my endometrium to actually reach a decent thickness. I ended up on double the dose of Estrofem and I could only get to a thickness of 5.7mm. I couldn't believe it!

As I was on a limited number of embryos I didn't want to waste any and this is why it was months before I did a transfer again. This time my endometrium was only 5.7mm and for some reason I agreed to a transfer. Again those two weeks were excruciating time went way to slow. I haven't prayed hardly as much in my whole life as I did in those two weeks. It took 5 embryos unfrozen as three died when thawed and we were just down to 15 already. But then the phone call came. The WFC nurse called me and said:

"So J, do you think it was worth coming in today? And I said, what do you mean? ..." whilst holding my breath she told me I was pregnant! I burst into tears and I think the only thing I could say was "Oh My God!!!!!" What a truly fabulous feeling!

We now have a beautiful 14 month old boy who I could not live without. We are now going for baby number two with 13 embryos left. Keep your fingers crossed for me.